Its been an interesting two weeks back after coming back to school from spring break. Some things I though I lost but I'm now realizing that nothing ever really is. Things become transformed. Even the bad can turn into a lesson learned and in that way help one grow and understand themselves better. The "should have, could have, would have" doesn't belong in anybodies life because its done and happened. One can dwell and beat themselves up even more or one can face it, learn from it, and then let it go. With that I must let you all go until the next post.
This past weekend has been spent surrounded by very inspiring individuals. Makers, do-ers, discoverers, searchers. And yet all so humble. I suppose that is what drives the medical profession, or scientists in general. We are usually never satisfied.
Right now I am frustrated at myself with my lack of motivation and inspiration. With my lack of purpose. It feels pointless and frustrating to live like this. A life with purpose is everything. Find purpose and you have everything. Purpose can always change. But to live without it is meaningless. It is a waste.
I know that I will find purpose again, however, right now I am in limbo. I know that I should be studying for the NAVLE, which I am. But that is purpose in itself. There is no passion behind it. Purpose should be self-driven. You cannot help but think about it. You cannot help but obsess about it. I want to find that something again. My dangerous love, where are you??
A subject I do not often write about is hope. Not to say that I am pessimistic. I do believe in a future and hope that it will be bright but in my opinion a tomorrow is not guaranteed. That is not to say that we should live each day carelessly. I believe that we should plan for a future but not be heartbroken if plans fall through.
Living each day mindfully and being present will allow you to embrace the future. Being stubborn and resisting the flow of life, only accepting certain outcomes is not a hopeful way to live. Being open provides for endless possibilities. It will allow for hope of a tomorrow while staying present.