Do You Care Enough to Not Care?

Love it!

Swimming

Wade through the pain without allowing yourself to drown in suffering.

Heaven

I can get to heaven
Walking out in the streets at night
Pushing my soul into the open wind
And in a daze I've been there
In a daze I begin to see the way

Rough few days, but strangely much more bearable than expected.
Happy 27th birthday brother. Miss you, love you.

Will I Be Forgiven?

Forgiveness already exists in the nature of God; it is already there. God has already forgiven you, for God is forgiveness itself. To err is human and to forgive is divine. But can you truly forgive yourself? That's the real question.

On A Bad Day, Remember This

Then proceed to smile and continue with your day.

Day Thirty

A picture of someone you miss. I will always miss his physical presence but I can still feel him in my life. Just like tonight when I realized that I'm wearing the same color and style sweatshirt he was in the uploaded photo. Miss you brother, always and forever.

Guilt vs Happiness

This thought has been in my mind recently since I've just now realized how much guilt I've lived with. I'm sure I am not alone because I can see it now in my family and others those I am close to as well. Guilt surrounds us and keeps us from truly living. We never feel that we truly deserve the happiness that comes our way. We then push it away causing more guilt and unhappiness. What a vicious cycle. But the first step is awareness so it is important to think about and understand the guilt we feel and then after that, just let it go. Here is something that we should all try the next time we feel ourselves sabotaging our happiness by feeling guilty, we should remind ourselves that it’s okay to feel happy even if we don't believe we deserve it.

Good luck and til next time!

Day Twenty Nine

A picture that can make me smile. Right now the absurdity of this photo and how well my body matched the sculpture gives me a giggle everytime. I guess even the Getty isn't safe from my immature mind.

Day Twenty Eight

A picture of something I am afraid of is not being accepted for who I am. I apparently want to be a gangster penguin.

I Couldn't Have Said It Better Myself

Growing Pains

enJOY!

Day Twenty Seven

A picture of something that means a lot to me. Although silly and probably insignificant to others these posts mean quite a bit to me. They are a way for me to continue to be inspired on days that I forget. They are a way to express myself and ease whatever I may be struggling with at that moment. Hopefully they help those that read as well.

Day Twenty Six

A picture of me and a family member. Here is one of my grandpa and I that was taken right before we left for the airport. How I will miss his kind face and quiet gentleness.

e^x

Your actions have a ripple effect,
treat each drop as if it were your last.

Day Twenty Five

A picture of your day. Actually here is one more of my evening. Tonight we went to test out my skates that were reset with blades from another boot and it was my cousins first time out on the ice. Had a great time and she loved it too!

Vancouver Findings

Tomorrow evening I head home after a week here. It's been a great trip and I accustomed myself to the setting here very quickly. Not that hard to do in a gorgeous city with family surrounding me. Two rooms and seven people made for a surprisingly open atmosphere. I leave relaxed and ready to take on the hectic home life. A few things I've picked up along the way:

Highrise living is not for me.
Vancouver living might just be for me though.
Family and love is really all you need.
Its hard getting caught up in yourself when there are so many others.
Little kids are absolutely amazing.

I'll be making a post hopefully Tuesday so til then!

Day Twenty Four

A picture of something I wish I could change.

You can’t change your entire life.

You can only change your next action.

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You can’t change a relationship with a loved one.

You can only change your next interaction.

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You can’t change your entire job.

You can only change your next task.

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You can’t change your body composition.

You can only change your next meal.

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You can’t change your fitness level.

You can only start moving.

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You can’t declutter your entire life.

You can only choose to get rid of one thing, right now.

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You can’t eliminate your entire debt.

You can only make one payment, or buy one less unnecessary item.

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You can’t change the past, or control the future.

You can only change what you’re doing right now.

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You can’t change everything.

You can only change one, small thing.

And that’s all it takes.

Simply Shakespeare

There are two sections from two plays that I have been mulling over.

As You Like It:

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players

Romeo and Juliet:

Why then, O brawling love!
O loving hate!
O any thing, of nothing first create!
O heavy lightness,
serious vanity,
misshapen chaos of well-seeming forms,
feather of lead,
bright smoke,
cold fire,
sick health,
still-waking sleep,
that is not what it is!

So few words but such deep meanings.

Just In Time

I'm not usually an avid horoscope reader but on the way back from picking up the leather jacket I've been yearning for from Aritzia I picked up the local paper and here is what Taurus' reading said

If you can't get what you need close to home, look for it elsewhere. Travelling may suit your wandering spirit anyway. You'll find what you are seeking.

How curious.

Day Twenty Three

A picture of my favorite book. I couldn't pick just one so I've decided on the Harry Potter series. I've grown up with Harry and have read the books countless times. I'll even admit to listening to the audiobook versions. Other notable favorites are anything by Dan Brown and The Art of Happiness by the Dalai Lama.

Day Twenty Two

A picture of something I wish I was better at is letting go. There is so much suffering that is caused from my refusal to just let things go and clinging to control.

When I'm trusting and being myself as fully as possible, everything in my life reflects this by falling into place easily, often miraculously.

Slightly Overdue

Hello, hello! I am very sorry for my belated thirty day picture challange posts but it has been due to a slightly busy week and also partially due to my need to be away from the computer for a while. During that while though I've managed to head up snowboarding, settled a few important matters, and headed to Vancouver to visit family. There is nothing like the unconditional love that these people up here have for me and I hope that they know how much they mean to me. I will be back to posting more once I return until then hope you all have a great week!

Day Twenty One

A picture of something I wish I could forget. Doubt tends to throws me askew from the right choices. I wish I could walk the path without having many doubts and a confidence in myself.

It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not.

Day Twenty

A picture of somewhere that you want to travel. I really hate to be too picky and too broad on this topic. There are so many places that I want to go but I know I will likely be unable to but as of now my top five destinations are:

1. Russia
2. Europe
3. Tibet
4. Japan
5. Ibiza

Day Nineteen

A picture and a letter!

Dear You,

This year don't allow doubts to diminish your belief in yourself, knowing that the only limits are the ones you put on yourself.

Sincerily,
Me

Day Eighteen

A picture of my biggest insecurity, my tummy. Nuff said!

Day Seventeen

A picture of something that has recently made an impact in my life. I've only been meditating since September and in that time I've noticed the huge difference it has made. I am able to be an observer to life taking away the self aspect in my perceptions. It allows me to think slower and clearer and from a place thats closer to my true self. I highly suggest it to everyone!

Day Sixteen

A picture of someone who inspires me. My Dharma teacher has yet to leave me uninspired every Wednesday night. He communicates words of change, compassion and patience to me on a humanistic level instead of just through Buddhism. He explains my own mind to me better and helps me let go of my own ego for the benefit of others. Lastly and most importantly, especially after today's events, he reminds me that I am a practitioner of good and make mistakes but can learn from them.

Day Fifteen

A picture of something I want to do before I die. Scary heights I believe are just a part of my genetic make up. My parents skydivers, grandfather a pilot, and a brother who wanted to fly helicopters. I would love to not just face my fear of heights by learning to skydive but to really fly by doing basejumps with wingsuits.

One of my favorite base jumping videos on wimp.com

Fears are nothing more than a state of mind

Day Fourteen

A picture of someone I can't imagine my life without. Furry little Ezra Fitch is my baby and I love her to bits and pieces. She is such a happy and friendly dog that her presence makes the world of a difference. Here is to hoping that it all works out in the new place with the floor situation and I don't have to leave her in Moreno Valley.